It's been a whirlwind of a week. Ber has visited Adelaide and left. We left our footprints along the coast of Victor Harbor, on the calm waters of Glenelg Beach, in the vineyards of Barossa... It has been a wonderful holiday for me and him. Just what we needed to keep this semi-long distance relationship alive and passionate.
Some may call this a short-distance relationship (aka normal rs), but I would beg to differ. We might be in the same country but we are 10 hours apart by car, 1 hr 10 min away by plane and 3248098458439535 Hrs apart by foot. We don't see each other every weekend. We can't anticipate the ending of things such as NS cos our earliest graduation date is in 6 years' time. I think long-distance takes alot of commitment because we have to imagine one anothers' unspoken and unseen needs and lifestyles. At times I feel like he's never there and he can never be there for me, and I am no longer emotionally connected with him anymore. And it's only holidays or times together such as this Easter break which reassures me (again) of my love and adoration for the sweet one.
posted by bob of sunshine* 6:07 AM
Argh.
Argh.
Argh.
I need a superman to save me from this disaster.
I am so sick of everything. Sick of the same of old voices in my head, telling me the same old things. Following the same old lines of reasoning.
I am so sick of the same old conversations, same old expressions, same old me, same old you.
I am sick of myself strutting around making conversations that are skin deep.
I want a break through. I want to break through. Help me.
posted by bob of sunshine* 4:03 AM
wow..holidays. Never knew it could feel this good.
But what am i doing in the uni library then?
I just cant wait for June. Like all the teachers have been saying over and over again. this is not a holiday. It is a study break. Yeah right.
Just for those who are curious, bernard is coming over to Adelaide on Thurs.
I am sooo cranky lately don't know whats wrong with me. can't be post MS can it? whatever.
posted by bob of sunshine* 12:58 AM
2nd round mooting is later today. Completely unprepared but none-the-less feeling tranquilized. Like the after effects of taking anti-depression pills or sth.
the holidays are here. I don't know if I am happy about it or not. I have been waiting sooooo long for this break, but when it's finally here, I almost wished it was later and longer. Later because I think I can still take a couple of weeks before collapsing, and longer because well..quite DUH..Holidays are good stuff.
Actually school has been really good. It is amazing how much I learnt in the past couple of weeks. Everytime I grasp some abstract concept or see a glimpse of the big picture in law and accounting..well I don't even know how to describe such a feeling. It feels like all my time and efforts are worth while and I am doing the right thing with my life. That I am in control of my life and my future. Like I am finally a student again. Basically I feel like I am on top of the world. hahaha. I know it sounds lame and crazy but I love all the readings I have to plough through, plus all the assignments too. They make me feel like I am actually learning something and growing as I learn. Amazing. And as toot as this may sound, I love being a law student!
But still, students need holidays and they..are..finally HERE!! Just tmr..then freedom:)
posted by bob of sunshine* 9:17 AM
Well Moots first round is over.
There's the good news and the bad news.
Let's see, good news is..
I got into the next round
Bad news is..
I bearly made it.
And then good news AGAIN..
I decided to continue this self torturing thing. Now I am aiming for anything above 65 points and if I get there, I will buy myself a pair of boots as reward. But if I don't make it, I will buy a pair of boots anyway cos it's getting cold, and it's giving me cold feet. muahaha.
posted by bob of sunshine* 4:51 PM
This week is going to be crazy busy.
Two competitions coming up..
Mooting and Witness Examination.
Then accounting assignment and Torts assignment. *sigh*
But it's going to be exciting too. Open competitions mean public speaking, and public speaking inevitably mean public humiliation *yay*. Don't I have some great stuff going for me this week heh heh heh.
well nights to the world!
posted by bob of sunshine* 7:21 AM
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