Accounting exercise [check]
sociology assignment [check]
case study [ ummMm check]
Rushed to uni in a cab to hand in the law assignment at 3.45pm, when the bloody thing is due at 4pm SHARP. Ran around the law campus looking for the lab and a printer, had to format my assignment with double spacing which took me awhile to figure out (with help). Time assignment was handed in: 3.59 tick tock.
hmm..
I think it's becoming a habit. And I am getting so hooked on the last minute adrenaline rush of handing in an assignment two seconds before the counter closes. The scuttling around and frantic search for my jacket to hide the peeping PJs, and then for computer lab printers. Ahh..
But seriously, seriously.
I ought to consider breaking the habit.
Before it breaks me.
posted by bob of sunshine* 2:50 AM
Going Melbourne tomorrow. Now all I have to do is get over today.
posted by bob of sunshine* 2:15 AM
Tell me..
Is this feeling I have love?
Is that aching of my heart fondness or passion?
Why am I not sad yet also not happy?
Why do I always come back to these questions? I start by asking if I love you. If I do, why. Then just as I conclude that I am in love, I toss in bed with emptiness. And all I want to feel was...something. I want to taste the tears of anger or loss, cries of happiness, or feel my heart wrenched in the rain, plucked from its cage and thrown to the Heartbreak Pacific. Anything baby. Just give me something to devote all that nasty energy to.
Tell me..
why do i seek cheap thrills when I always say I love mundanity and slacking?
Why do I want to piece every little insignificant details together to get a distorted big picture?
why do I want to have options when I know I won't go for it in the end? Why do I complain and question about you when I know you are nice to me. Not up to my active, exciting (dumb) expectations, you are trying your best. I know that much.
So why, why, why do I still ask why.
Ero claims that when one's love and desires are so strong, they either end up controlling the other person, or surrender completely to them, in the hope that they will stay.
So does it mean anything if one doesn't control or surrender?
I think this is what too much sociology does to you. Makes you think and think till your head bleeds about questions that will never have an answer.
" How could the one i give my heart to
break my heart so bad
how could the one that makes me happy
make me feel so sad
won't somebody tell me so i can understand
if you love me,
how could you hurt me like that?
How could the one i give my world to
throw my world away
How could the one who said 'i love you'
say the things you say
How could the one I stayed so true to
just tell me lies
How can the one I gave my heart to
break this heart of mine
tell me..
How could you be so cold to me
when I gave you everything
All my love, all I had inside
How could you just walk out the door
How could you not love me anymore
I thought we had forever
I can't understand.
How could the one I shared my dreams with
Take away my dream from me
How could the love that brought so much pleasure
bring such misery
Won't somebody tell me
Somebody tell me please
If you love me, how could you do that to me?
tell me.. "
-aaliyah's
posted by bob of sunshine* 12:38 PM
This bed is on fire
with passionate love
the neighbours complain about the noises above
but she only cums when she's on top...
WOOHOOOOoooo
After some deliberation, I crawled out of bed to go for Flinders Law Pubcrawl 06. It was absolutely fun. Thanks Deb and Ber for encouraging me to go:)
The pictures speak louder than words so just help yourselves to them. Some of the actions were not captured, but it was just the norm.. Me getting high and standing on tables, chairs or whatever platform to dance. But thats how I got to meet Liz and Emily the seniors.
I chatted with Kel and Mel, hugged and danced with Kavi, shared a smoke with Hannah, drank with Phatthy and Pete, joked with just about everyone and for all those I didnt name, I had fun with them (you). Thanks for making my night so exciting.
All I can say is, I have really great batch mates and lovely seniors.. Now all I need is lesser workload to have a blast this year.
haha..right.
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:41 AM
On my way home
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:41 AM
fairies plus the pixie (me)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:35 AM
Impromptu picture! Kelly, Kavi, mel and me
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:32 AM
Couple of the night! Elise is so pretty and she came to support her hubby in the pretty pink shirt too!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:31 AM
sweetie pies united
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:29 AM
Bubbly Emily and I in the loo:)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:29 AM
Matt who SMILED and flashes his white pearlys
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:28 AM
he is a really really great guy (in pink too)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:27 AM
liz hot senior (isnt she soooo sweet)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:24 AM
lady lovelies
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:23 AM
My torts seminar friends!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:22 AM
PETE the man in pink
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:21 AM
Having fun fun fun!!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:20 AM
Kav the hottie and Steven the tall hunk
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:18 AM
Uz
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:16 AM
pretty hannah, my intelligent witty generous darl'.
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:16 AM
Josh's cool belt buckle "von zipper".. it sure is near the zip
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:13 AM
My babes.. Note the shirt says (Flinders Law Student's association - Legally Blinde)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:11 AM
Kavi and I getting boosted with vodka shots. yumm..
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:10 AM
Debby and I did sth really evil last night. but all's good..
I think Deb and I are C-R-A-Z-Y. We have fun even in Adelaide (which btw chose to CLOSE ALL shops on Adelaide Cup Day because public holidays are so NOT for shopping but for family affairs or some crap), imagine the two of us anywhere else. We create fun like how couples create love.
Damn i have got work again tonight. Then work tmr night and PUB crawl on SAT!! then Sunday rest day and another week of the school + work cycle and Friday is to Melbourne! And then 3 weeks later Easter. I love love love Easter.
posted by bob of sunshine* 1:46 PM
I miss my silly pooh pooh.. my dar dar..stickman aka bestfriend:(
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:49 AM
The three of us. Part two of our Strawberry picture
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:33 AM
A happy happy me!!!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:32 AM
the Sweetie pies of Adelaide 2006
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:31 AM
I really like this picture cos Grace looks so steadfast in a fast paced whirling world..
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:30 AM
Neo the band
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:29 AM
Gau and her cool nose studd
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:26 AM
Me with my not so cool coloured on nose-studd
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:26 AM
Cutting the cake in a ritualistic kind of way.. haha
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:25 AM
Mekongggg..not the same one as Melbourne but close enough! Thanks Gau:)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:25 AM
Me and the cake
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:24 AM
The work of friendship.. My birthday surprise was so sweeeeet!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:18 AM
Smiling myself silly with tears in my eyes..
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:17 AM
Happiest (and luckiest) girl in the world..
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:15 AM
the Committee member being..umMm.. cute;)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:14 AM
My lovely Committee, thanks!!!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:13 AM
tearing through my present, and luvin' my new Pinky wallet!
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:11 AM
finding the inner child with the balloons
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:09 AM
Our family of girls:)
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:08 AM
This weekend is THE best i ever had. Thanks to my dearest housemates!!
I had the best surprise party ever. One filled with balloons, laughter and tears. It felt so real I forgot what month it is, haha.
While I was in school, my beloved housies (namely Grace and Ida) were busy blowing balloons in Grace's room. 59 balloons. 118 and more gulps of air just for me.. I felt like the luckiest girl on earth (And I think I am).
I was so touched.. the warm feeling engulfed me as 10 < of us squeezed into a cosy room singing happy bday songs.. it felt like family.
And in more ways than one, we are.
The room was of the prettiest colour with the floor filled with pink and white balloons. And my pretty present hidden among them. Thanks so much girls and boys for the thought. Debby...thanks so much for remembering. And Gau too. Love you dear roomie.
So anyway..that was our surprise bday party.
Then we went out for dinner... and Leighton asked if girls who wore skirts still had the problem of sweaty bums. haha. Cos he thinks there's plenty of ventilation.
After dinner, we went for an 'underground' like live rock band gig. It was pretty ummm...different. haha. And our house-mate Jol was performing as the VIP 'hot chick' so we had to join him on the dance floor. The music was cool, especially the band NEO, cos even if all failed..their hot drummer was there. Ohh.. the hot hot CRAFTY. Gau, Grace and I were fantasizing about one night stands with him. He is hot. Hotter than Indian curry and Mexican Chilli.
Right, next up. We went home for our much anticipated DRINKING session!! We had so much liquor at home, we could have set up a shop. Grace and I had the king cards with our Johnnie Walker Whiskey and Baileys.
We had the bday cake, we drank and talked and laughed the whole house down. It was by far, the most memorable drinking night ever. We played some silly truth or dare games and here are some of the stuff we did..
Debby had a free glance of my bare torso with a bra.
Gau frenched me (whooo).
Grace shared some pretty intimate details with us concerning her bf's uhh..personal assets..
Takuji had to give Maybelline a peck on the lips. And being the typical polite japanese, he ran to the tap to rinse his mouth first before planting the kiss.
Alot of other stuff were exposed that night... but I will keep them secret haha cos ive already said enough.
But basically it was a crazy night and because i was having so much fun I didnt even keep count of how many whiskey shots i had. So i became kinda drunk.
And I started crying (psychotic me). And crying and my dear housemates brought me to the toilet and took care of me all morning. While in my terrible terrible state, I remember some snippets of their conversation...
While I was crying..
Alex: Betty, why the hell are you crying?
Betty: Cos..you..stole my baileys...
Alex: Okay Betty I'll give you some baileys. But you gotta promise to sip them slowly k?
Betty: Nod Nod
Alex pours some for me. And I finished it in a gulp.
Debby: Stop feeding her alcohol!
Alex: I asked her to drink it slowly.
Leighton: Where the heck is Kevin?
Everyone starts looking for Kevin who roamed around the house chanting "I am sober".
Haha..goodness the house was in chaos. haha.
Debby: How much did she (me) drink?
Grace: I don't know.. ALOT?
Alex: I lost count cos she was just swigging from the bottle straight. Geez. You guys are gonna kill yourselves.
Me: CRYING..
Debby: Honey, it's okay. Just let it out. That's what friends are for.. We are here for you.. It's okay honey.
Grace: BETTY! You are STRONG remember? STOP crying!!!
Debby: It's okay honey.. cry it all out. It's okay.
Grace: BETTY! BE STRONG!!
At about 7am, I started vomitting again,
Gau: I think we should call an ambulance, she shouldnt still be vomitting. We need to get her stomach pumped.
Me thinking (cos i was too sick to move or talk): Yes ambulance please. I think I am going to die. Scrap my stomach clean please.
Alex: Ambulance? Yeah sure. It's just that it's gonna cost a freaking 500 bucks..
Me thinking: Wait.. No ambulance. No ambulance please.
Debby thinking: Betty will kill me if she wakes up with a 500 buck bill..
hahaa..I love my friends.
Anyway..on Sat, I woke up at 6pm with a terrible hang over. Any slight movement makes my world spin non-stop. And I felt like I could puke my guts out again.
Debby took such good care of me, bringing me water and helping me to drink from the straw. She removed my bracelets and watch and earring..and brought me to bed. What would I do without her. I really dont know what to say, except that she is the only sister I could possibly ask for.
And Grace and gau were so sweet too. While I slept on Gau's lap, that poor girl was so exhausted, she fell asleep with me on her. And Grace just wanted a rest in the TV room, but she was so worn out by me, she fell asleep just sitting down.
hahaa...oh and Grace said the next day that Debby should just quit Medicine and become a nurse. Geez, I love that girl. She will be my gynae for life.
Debby.. thanks thanks thanks.
At that..I promise never to drink so much again. Though it felt good letting loose and crying out all the issues that's been clinging to me for so long. Issues I didnt even consciously know about.
Baby, Do you love me or do you not? I need to know.
posted by bob of sunshine* 8:12 PM
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